yoon / 13.02.20 ch+

I’m currently at the company. No, I haven’t eaten dinner yet. Yes, I’m in the recording studio… We [the members] have something to record today, so we’re individually recording and I’m just waiting for my turn. I thought I’d chat with you all while I wait, so I turned on this live… We’re recording our new song. I don’t know how much I can tell you but… well, we’re meeting again for our special live tomorrow so I won’t say much. We gotta give(?) you new music, after all…

 

The reason why I decided to do a live now…firstly, I wanted to apologize. I know for all of you, but for the members too, the cancellation of our encore concert was really difficult news to accept. Honestly, we should’ve consoled all of you first before anything else and we should’ve been there for you. I want to apologize to all of you for not doing that when we should’ve. Of course, I know we did what we had to do [in canceling the concert] […] But if we were all going to be sad we should’ve been sad together, and I feel like we didn’t do that, so I felt really sorry… Ah, did I get into the deep/genuine topics too soon? Well I’ll just be really honest in today’s live. 

 

First off, we accepted what happened because we felt like it was something we needed to do under the circumstances. But to be honest with you, this was the concert that the members and I had been looking forward to the most. We had to find and book the concert venue in a rush… Actually, we had prepared and re-arranged special performances with the band just for the encore show too and everything… all of us were working really hard and with so much spirit to prepare for this concert. 

 

But suddenly … I’m not really sure how to put this … but with the sudden outbreak of the coronavirus disease … this is something painful that’s making the whole world suffer. When I first heard that the concert had been canceled, and then we officially announced it to our fans through various SNS channels … I actually … you guys know that I’m on social media a lot to see what you’re saying. But this time I just couldn’t even bring myself to consider doing that …. I think I didn’t even look at my phone for a few days after that, actually. I’m sure the members feel the same way that I do, but for me personally … I understand that you guys [the fans] must’ve felt the same way as me too, but just speaking for myself… I thought, ‘How come whenever we try to do anything, something always blocks the way?’ Those kinds of thoughts suddenly flooded my head, and just thinking about everything that’s happened in the past with us too … I think … those events left behind a lot of frustration and disappointment in my heart. Like I said earlier, it would’ve been nice if I could have shared everything I went through with all of you, but I couldn’t. I know I tell you guys to never apologize to me about anything, but .… Well right now since I’ve got a better grip on my mental, I can say this to you now with a smile on my face. 

 

[…]

 

Anyway, I wanted to tell you guys about that. And once I refocused and got a grip… and finally re-opened my social media, I saw a lot of fans who were disappointed, and I knew too well that many of you would’ve been upset… And we didn’t necessarily need to, BUT! I also felt like it was right to celebrate that day with you guys. Also because I felt like it was my fault… same goes for how the members feel too. They were regretful that they didn’t have more opportunities to spend time with you. I really wanted to let you guys know about that. 

 

And after the cancellations got announced — we weren’t necessarily continuously having a tough time or constantly feeling down. We were busy preparing for the album, shooting for the album cover and all that stuff, so we were actually quite busy with everything that comes with an album preparation. We were really busy. So yeah … I guess I wanted to tell you guys what we were doing for those few days when we were silent on social media. But I really … speaking just for myself … I broke down [during the duration of announcements of concert cancellations, social media feedback, etc]. 

 

I’m usually not the type to talk about difficulties with you guys, but I think it hit me pretty hard this time around. As you guys already know, the situations that we [WINNER] are currently in and stuff like that … I think I was just really feeling uneasy without even knowing. But of course, now, there’s no need for you guys to worry about us. I’m alright now, and I hope you guys will be too. That’s why we had a meeting with everyone to arrange the special V-Live, set on the original day we were all supposed to meet. 

 

I feel like there’s a weight that’s been lifted now that I’ve shared everything with you guys. I’ll stop the deep/sincere talks here. I’ll end it here. 

 

[…] 

 

I knew I wanted to tell you… but I also wanted to do it when I was in a better place and felt better. Like now, when I’m able to smile when I talk about it. That’s when I felt like it would be the right timing, so that’s why it’s taken until today to be here. 

 

And now, happy things! I’ll tell you about happy things. I want you guys to get excited about this album, so I’ll drop a little spoiler. 

 

Well firstly, this time around… I’m sure we won’t just come back with one or two songs, right? We’ll be back with an album. We’ll be back with an album, and … gosh, I don’t know how much I should tell you. But anyway, the title track this time is made by our Mino, who poured his sincerity into making it. Applause!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 As for the rest of the songs on the album, I think they’ll be songs that you’ll enjoy… of course, they need to be released first for you to know, but I think it [the album] will be packed with songs that you’ll really enjoy. The album may be released a bit sooner than all of you anticipated, but I don’t think it’ll be delayed, considering our current situation… So I don’t think it’ll be pushed back. I think we’ll be back soon with good music for all of you. We may talk about the upcoming album in more detail during tomorrow’s live…but we also may not. You know, since tomorrow’s live is not really for that. It’s just a chance for us to spend time together. So yeah. Soon. Soon. Real soon! I think we’ll be able to meet again soon. Especially for those of you who are feeling disappointed about the cancellation of the concerts, I hope you’ll feel a sense of comfort in your hearts as you wait for us. Yes~! 

 

Also, I’ll work harder to be a Seung Yoon who communicates more often, exchanges energies, and spends more time with you all. The same goes for the members. We’ll become a WINNER who communicates more. I know. I know so well that you’re feeling uneasy and unsettled at the prospect of a short…wait? that we are about to have. So we’ll become a WINNER that brainstorms ideas for what to do to fill that gap and to communicate more. So once more! We will turn over a new leaf, and I think our tension/energy needs to be boosted again. For us too, we’ve been in a place where we felt a lot of pressure recently over a lot of different kinds of uncertainties. I think if I’m able to center myself and continue, the members will also get really energized too. So don’t worry too much. We’re working hard and preparing various things to make sure we stay busy, and we’re getting ready to deliver a lot of good news. Of course, if you compare us to others, I know that we constantly fall short. But we’re putting in a lot of effort to do as much as we can with what we have under our own circumstances, so I hope you will understand that. 

 

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I don’t have too much time, so I’ll just say what needs to be said and go. I hope you guys don’t feel too upset, even if there’s something upsetting that happens. And I hope you guys cheer up. All around the world, there are so many people facing difficulty [with the coronavirus] […] Everyone, take care of your health. I mean if you’re sick, then what’s the use! What’s the use of music and everything else if you’re sick! Am I right??? If you’re sick, then what’s the point of me doing this live?! You guys can’t be sick. So let’s not be sick, let’s be careful, let’s eat our meals… If you’re sick, then even if we release new music, or have schedules, or whatever else, that’s just… How can you hold up your phone like this? How can you watch all the videos? You would be exhausted and struggling. So don’t be sick. Eat your meals, make sure you rest. That way you can be there to receive all the good news we have planned. Right?

 

And since this is Yoon TV, I’ll briefly mention… I’ll do what I can to make sure you hear news about my solo music as soon as possible. But the thing is… I’ve mentioned this a few times before… but I have my greed/ambition. So I’m waiting for circumstances that will be favorable for me, or that can at least be appealing to the general public. Or I guess like a time frame? A reasonable time frame. I’m thinking about those sorts of things. To the fans, I think I’ve worked hard to show you whatever I could, but I have yet to give that sort of impression upon everybody else. I want to have a steady build-up that will ultimately be beneficial for me, so I’m looking into what I can do to make that happen. And I know you’re all thinking that way for me too, but I just wanted you to know that I’m trying to figure it out as well. I will be looking into various things I can do to make it happen. Even beyond just myself and for WINNER too, I’ll put in the effort to find ways we can leave you with a lot of different things/memories. So…well, I’m always around, so if you have any ideas, suggest them to me and I’ll think about what I/we can do about it. […] Anyway, just know that it’s always on my mind too. And I’d also like for you to know that I haven’t loosened up on myself and who I am. Okay? Okay👍🏻! 

 

Let’s all cheer up again. I’ve come back to my senses now, I’ve got a grip on myself, and I’m in my working mode. So if all of you could join me in that, I would really appreciate it. Let’s all be healthy! 

 

I really have to go now, so I’ll say my final goodbye and finish up. Everybody be healthy, have a good night’s sleep, and I’ll see you tomorrow for our special V-Live. Eat well, rest well…! Or I mean eat well, sleep well, rest well! Bye guys. Bye! […] See you tomorrow! Bye~