page / were we?

Who came and fogged up my memory?

Or maybe I accidentally spilled water across it

It’s only been a month but it feels like a decade

Am I already at the age to be like this?

 

Even if I can recall

That place, that thing

I can’t remember

The way that I felt

Or anything else

Like the plot of the movie

That first made me cry

 

Is this the feeling of relief that comes

After loving with no regrets?

That pleasant feeling of familiarity and comfort

Was it all in my head?

I wonder if everyone else’s pain

Cools off this quickly too

 

Somebody tell me

 

Was our love

Burning?

Or was it warm?

Or was it

Just lukewarm

If I end up forgetting this easily I’ll only feel

Empty

 

Is it because I cried like the pouring rain?

Or did the wipers in my mind get stuck

I bleed across my memories and stain them

And expressions turn murkier

 

When I go back

To that place from that time

Strangely,

It doesn’t hurt

I can’t remember it

Like the name of the kid

Who used to live next door when you were young

 

Is this the feeling of relief that comes

After loving with no regrets?

That pleasant feeling of familiarity and comfort

Was it all in my head?

I wonder if everyone else’s pain

Cools off this quickly too

 

Somebody tell me

 

Was our love

Burning?

Or was it warm?

Or was it

Just lukewarm

If I end up forgetting this easily I’ll only feel

Empty

 

I’d hoped to keep pining for you

Just until the next time this season came around

But seeing how even that’s out of my control

Stings me, saddens me,

Humiliates me

 

Did we love each other?

No, did we even like each other?

Or did we

Get so tired of the loneliness

That we were just somebodies that the other stumbled upon

 

Was our love

Burning?

Or was it warm?

Or was it

Just lukewarm

If I end up forgetting this easily I’ll only feel

Empty